Universidad Autonoma de Aguascalientes

First is first ... I missed Maru because well ... yeah! I just missed him so much! x) I'm going to be sad when he leaves on Saturday though ... I'm hoping, juuuust hoping that he'll leave on Sunday. >_>; Maybe not, but still... I can hope! Ahh, imma miss that boy who looks like a girl when his hair is pretty x) -will tie it up soon- I am also making him a banana pie... hopefully it will be good and shtuff. ><;

Next thing ... went to a counciler and sadly I have to take Political Science. Yuuuuck. >___<; I never wanted to take that class at all, but sadly I kinda have to. *Sigh* Well hopefully here's what my schedule SHOULD look like:

English 1A
Math 70 - Libral Arts Mathamatics
Japanese 2
Childhood Development - Child Growth & Development
Political Science 1

Okei, well ... hopefully it looks like that. If not then ... blah imma killz a ugly teddy bear. =| Well, who knows but I'm hoping that I don't have late night school anymore, at least around fall. I hate it when it's too dark. Ahaha.

Finally the last thing on my mind is U.A.A. Short for Universidad Autonoma de Aguascalientes. I am planning to study there once I majored in English and Childhood Development. I bet you guys are like: 'wtf. neeerd.'

So what? I want to see how sessions are there and hopefully get a degree in sociologia. It'll take time, but I'm sure I can get it. So I literally have three degrees. (: Would be sweet neh? Okay, so the spanish degree wouldn't count in America, but screw it. I wouldn't mind having to work in Mexico and perhaps Spain or Japan since ... some classes/majors are used in Japan from that school. Am I making sense here? Maybe not, maybe you don't even care but hell. I'm going to do it and that's final. I'll also be living with my grandma. Hopefully from my mothers side, since it's closer. >___>; I don't like my other grandmas house it's soo ... spooky at night. I also don't like that dog she has =___=;

Silly thoughts

I want a man to propose to me at their home. (:

I want him to play a video game while ordering me to get him his backpack. Then he tells me to look in the small side pocket and take out a small box. I do it and then he'll propose right there and that moment. Ahaha; silly right?

Yeah...

But it's a cute thing to do. I dunno, me and senpai were talking about this out of boredom.

I personally find it cute. (:

-will use a oneshot-

Ohohoho~!

Omfgwtfstfu!

Blah, irritated with ... small little dogs.

Wanna kick em all and hopefully they run away from me. Especially those damn naked idiots of chihuahuas. I mean wtf, those things look like rats and always tremble. Fawk... wanna kick it so bad like a football or soccer ball. >___<; Nyeh! Next time I see one (which will be next next week I am sure) I will accidentally kick it. Okay, so not all small dogs are annoying, just those stupid Chihuahuas that people think are cute. Jeez, define me what the term "cute" is for yah then. Tch.

Why are I mad?

Hmm, stupid dog ripped my earphones. Do you know how long I have tried to keep my earphones which are new alive?! Sht, something always happens to it and now that stupid dog broke it.

Whatever ... I'll just get new ones ... hopefully.

Oh yeah, talking to my classmate/lunch friend about education in other countries. Well since she's from Vietnam, she learned the hard way. That is by getting hit. Yikes right? Okay so in the back of my mind ... I kinda agree. I think U.S should torture kids when they get the wrong answer. (: Okay maybe not, but what I mean is some sort of punishment. They won't care if they get an "F", so what to do to change their minds? Parents? Puh-lease. Parent's won't do anything or they try but just wont get any good results. Thus I agree with kid beating, I mean look at those foreign students. They don't slack off do they?

Maybe I'm wrong, but I dunno.

Ramble, ramble.

I'm still pissed. I want my earphones. -mad-

Y'know what I hate the most?

People telling me to go online and guess what? They're not even talking to me.

WOOOW.

It's so annoying. Fawk it. I'm ignoring the next request to go online. Now I'M going to be the one saying it. It's bullshit that I have to wait for the person who told me to go online. Complete bull.

Don't ever say it to me if you're not going to respond to me or going to be away for like the whole damn day or perhaps in two hours.

Do tell me if you are away, it's fucking irritating that I have to WAIT for a one fucking word reply which would be "o.o" or whatever.

Hella pissed.

I feel like kicking a small dog right now to please myself.

Damn fucktards.

Excuse my language, I'm old enough to cuss. >\

I fell in love...?!

So .. after class I went to Walgreens... because my throat was really hurting so I went to go buy water. Yeah took me 15min to get to walgreens, stupid bus. Then again I really could have gotten water from the student store. /swt Aiya... why didn't I think of that earlier?! Anyway...

I fell in love...

You know how theres a section in walgreens for the holidays? Well as you all know easter is near ... and there are a lot of stuff animals like ... chickens and bunnies. (:

So I fell in love with this white stuffed bunny sitting by its lonely self...

I really ... REALLY wanted to buy it, but I'm a student. I'm poor. I don't have the money for such cute luxury...

-Sad-

I REALLY want to buy it ... it was a cute bunny too!

5 bucks though...Whaaa! I need a job...

Cousin Lovey Dovey?

Have you ever had a big -I mean seriously big 100+members- family and y'know sometimes you think some relatives are just family friends?

Hell yes I have.

Anyway, I think there's something wrong with my fathers side of the family. There's cousin x cousin love spreading there. Kinda weird when I find MY younger cousins crushing or falling for the best known boy cousin Leo. Personally I dislike that wanna be ghetto boy, but what can I say? He's alright sometimes. It's weird hearing my urk cousins -once or twice removed- talk about him like that... I feel I'm in an awkward atmosphere. Yet I am ashamed to say...

I've been in a much more awkward situation with this. I still can't believe I've dated a cousin who I think is once removed, unaware that he was a relative.

Yikes right?

I mean, I met him during one of the practice dance for the twins 15th. I did NOT know who the heck that kid was -oh wait he's 2 years older-. So me being friendly to whomever because I was only staying in Mexico for about 1 more month, decided to talk to him since he was sitting alone. We talked and talked and I started to like this dude's interests and hobbies. Sure I hated the fact he labeled me as an American High School Musical Disney Freak (which I am NOT!), but he was great company during the practices. Suddenly after the actual 15th party ended we started dating. How, you ask?

We danced. He was teaching me how to dance and I must say, it was great. Yet I am ashamed to say, I asked him out more or less during my lessons. Err... there is NOTHING wrong with a girl asking a guy out. So bleh! =P Besides ... I was actually kidding, but I guess he took it seriously. Oops; my bad?

So there was another 15th for my uuh; cousin once removed the following week, we talked, chatted and danced. It seemed that he was bothering my other cousin who lives here about me. I found it sweet since ... yeah. Idk, I just found it sweet. Another 15th party came. -Whoa, how many right? Lmao...- So let's see how everything was revealed, after the go karts -which I am now addicted to- we took pictures. My aunty began to get the actual cousins to suround my grandmother and soon I found (once my aunty wanted the cousins sons and daughters surround grandma) out he was my cousin once removed. HA! Didn't see THAT one coming. >>; Well I was pretty much shocked. I thought he was a close family friend, boy was I wrong. In the end we broke up. (:

He was cute, weird, and outgoing. A little bit too preppy for my taste, but he was very kind. So now ... I'm just warning you people out there with big families...

Moral of the story is ... if you meet a person in a family thing, ask him/her who they are related to or if they're family friends. I don't think YOU would want my kind of shocking surprise ... I mean if we have never found out ... what would have happened?

My moral of the story was ... karma bites back. ^^; I should have kept my mouth shut about my fathers weird family curse. Cousin x Cousin love? Yeah... /swt

Eh, was bored and he MSNed me so I wrote this. Haha; I lied to him telling him that maru was my new bf... i apologize to maru, but he said he doesn't mind. Hopefully this summer when he comes here he wont ... start something awkward. >>; I find it weird now /swt. That or i can TOTALLY just run away from him, but running away wont solve problems. ):

Oh yeah thank GOD Ramylle taught me the whole second cousin once removed thing or third... I'm not as confused anymore. I think...Augh! >___<;

I am ashamed to say this is my worst embarrassing moment of my life. Ahhh...

BUT I mean ... there is NOTHING wrong with cousin love, I mean ... yeah. You just fell for the person and it just happens to be your relative. Ah, I'm getting myself confused. @__@; don't hate meh. ):

Cloud 9

I like this song by the Temptations. (: Kinda catchy.

Hmm, learning the guitar for the first time annoys me. My fingers gets tangled doing Bm and i think E chord. No wait it's D chord. Blah. How annoying, but it's good that I'm taking interest in music once again. I mean ... I was playing the recorder for like ... 2 years in 1-2nd grade then started it again in my freshman and sophomore year. xD I completely forgot how to read notes and how to play it. Although I hate the wind instruments because they go too high ... they're okay to play. Just annoying how some of them sound.

I like playing instruments, they're fun but sadly I loose interest in them quickly and soon I forget. =\ How sad...

Hopefully I'm up for taking guitar lessons next year. I hope I don't loose interest in it though. =___=; I have an 75% chance that I might.

Or maybe I should start singing, but ... I can't sing. Lmao. x) My voice isn't trained to sing, it's trained to ... speak nonsense?

Why...?

I hear people saying:

Fuck Life!

Whoa! Life's important and your mother and father brought you to life because they were in love and they soon fell in love with you. Don't say such mean things about life. Life is good, just depends on how you use it. Sure we all make mistakes and we're pretty mad at "Life" but c'mon now. Member the good times when ... y'know fell for your crush and got an A in some subject. Heck I was pretty happy and think of those happy moments. So life is good. (:

Btw; may or may not be important, but I started copying JJCasas's awesome diary book thinker! It's not the same really... I just write my thoughts down or ideas on what to write. But yeah, gotta admire that guy. He's like a little kids role model... (is subconsciously calling herself a kid)

I need to get some high self-esteem. T__T; I like being a kid, but ... I still wanna be a grown woman like my older cousins ... who are pregnant and married ... kay maaybe not THAT old. (:

Retreat 09: "I will be here"

Alright, so overall the retreat was pretty fun and amazing. This year the class was so ... haha smart and super enthusiastic. Sweet huh? Even though I almost lost my voice because I was so loud, I enjoyed it. It was the first retreat where I actually talked a lot and "lost" my voice. So let's start with super Friday Night.

Friday:
Alright, so I packed my things the day before and went off to class at 930am. When school was over, I immediately ran back home because I forgot to pack my talk and do math hwk that was due that day. Ooops. Haha; everything went pretty smooth once 400pm hit the clock. I got on the bus with the confermondi and sat next to Ramylle throughout the whole way. He's pretty cool to talk to, kind, sweet, and funny. Okay well ... not THAT sweet since he frikin scared me to death when we were almost at the place we were supposed to be at and it was so dark. Boom, he starts talking about ghost, zombies, mosters, horror movies. Ahh, darn him. I also do not like the idea where we are in the middle of the woods and talking about ghosts. Although I only believe in Hevean, Hell, and Purgatory, I shouldn't be scared of ghosts, but it just happens. So we got there, it's really really dark and we go to our cabins. I'm with girls who ... y'know are very hyper active. That's not the point though ... let's move on to the actual retreat. Um, for the intro to staff skit ... I had to be a

Hyper Bubbalicious Babe

Whoa, I don't like that role, but I tried my best to play it. So all I said "Oh my gah", "lyke", "yaaah", and stuff like that. Pretty much acting like a SoCal white rich girl. >>; At that point ... I lost my voice. LMAO. Not kidding, my vocal choards began to ... yuck. Hurt. Thus we began to play animal call, once again, voice hurts. >_<; ANYWAY, I love my group. They were really enthusiastic.

John - sweetboy, funny/weird, super cute personality, never afraid to ask questions, kind, and understanding.
Arvin - one of a kind, hyper, like John he was never afraid to ask questions, enthusiastic, admirable.
James - the oldest of the group, sweet, shy, caring, kind, amazing, a critical thinker, a deep thinker, throughtful, he's basically the knowladgable guy out of the guys, understanding, quiet.
Katrina - emotional, caring, enthusiastic, artistic, unique, admirable, one of the sweetest smiles i've ever seen, a giver, shy but she can quickly add on to things, focused, can bring a good atmosphere.

A very unique group I've ever had. I'm actually proud I became their leader even though I feel like I should have done more for them especially Katrina and James. Darn it, should have done more. >>; Ger ... Well Friday Night was pretty awesome overall. I'm glad that the kids enjoyed it and perhaps gained something from it. So ... on the way back to the cabins after the confermindi's were already back in bed and the leader meeting ended... Ramylle and Julio started to go back... nah Julio left me alone with Ramylle ... causing him to talk about mountain lions and stuff like that. >__<; Of course I would scream so I did. I am so going to get him for that ... Grr...

Saturday:
I don't remember who, but someone messed with my phone alarm and caused it to ring at 6:30. Darn those girls ... Who in the right mind would want to shower early in the morning when it's frikin cold. Also I was sweating because nobody turned off the heater. Sigh ... So morning came, breakfast was alright ... then played taptap and did my talk. I think it went okay, but I think I should have talked a bit louder and put more feelings into it. So, that must be a reminder. Of course everyone starts to cry once the Family segment starts. I really should have put more depth into that section with my group and make them open up even more. Katrina did and I wish I was like a superhero and solve all her problems, but I cant, I just gave her my support. ): Well for lunch I sat with all the guys group table maggier, umm ... I guess I look 14 or 15 to them. They couldnt believe I was like 18, soon to be 19. >>; I look like a kid. Damn it... I will damage my skin and look older! )< But then I won't be able to pay 50 cents for Muni, so ... NEVER MIND! ;D Ahaha, yeah got some arguments ( a funny argument ) with this confermondi Jose, because I said you cannot eat chips inside a sandwich, it just can't be. )< Umm this guy named Chester ... I fell in love with his hair. So long and dark and ... yeah! I love his hair *really REALLY wants to tie it up in a pony tail* ):

So... hours passed and we did the turn around skit for practice... I kept looking at Jeffrey and Julio and somehow I dunno why, I just tried my hardest not to laugh. I dunno why I was laughing... I was basically the happy suicide. Wtf. >>; But during the REAL skit I took off my glasses so I couldn't see anything and well ... I put on a serious expression. It worked. I got my feet wet because it was raining outside, but it worked out well. (: Ramylle, Jeffrey, and Julio did a good job. ;)

Throughout the day it was more emotional than ever. People cried, people laughed, and people just stayed silent. Thus it was time to head back into the cabins. The leaders stayed behind for awhile to sign the graffity sheets and just talk. This time it wasn't Ramylle that scared me but Julio. He jumped on me and I of course being a scardy cat, cried. BUT I laughed at the same time. Jeez, shouldn't have said I'm scared of the dark. Shouldn't have been so honest... bleh.

Sunday:
This time the girls woke up at 5:30. What the eff. Well, I went with two other confermondi to the shower place. I didn't expect some of the girls throw rocks at the boys cabin that was infront of us. Ugh, I apologized to Julio and Ramylle. Too many wild ones in my cabin. /swt.

Well the retreat ends sunday. And we all went to church. We went to confession, mass, and eating. It was an interesting day, I learned a lot. Sure the ending seemed messed up, but ... hopefully we gave the kids some hope to come back and take over. Hopefully...

So ... sorry to Patti and Maru because I was going to call them, but there was NO service at the camp. Literally, NO Service. -sadface- ):