I may (or may not) be moving.
Where you ask?
Pittsburg, California.
A little bit up on Vallejo and near Sacramento, but not quite. I am in fact excited because I might be able to have my own room at last. Yet I am sadden.
No more walking up the hill I detest, but love at the same time. OLPH will be far far away from me. Muni will be gone, and I am not so sure how the bus system works over there (hopefully it's not like damn Samtrans). I won't be able to bother my good neighbor, Donna C. anymore. I will indeed miss going to Japantown whenever I want. I will also miss senpai terribly. It sucks and I am indeed sadden.
My dad is going tomorrow to take a look at the house. So far it's cheap and pretty for his taste.
Fuck.
Hopefully the house is ugly and not pretty and may I add it should contain rats?
...
That's what I hope he sees at least. Ugh.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Unsatisfied
I'm satisfied with life, really I am.
I have stuff that I don't really need, I have a home, I don't live far away so I'm not spending money stupidly, I like college, but yet ... why am I so unsatisfied?
Sure senpai lives far away, but I've adapted this (more or less). And I enjoy not seeing people from high school or middle school. I mean I see some, but not like ... every single day. It would be to ... to weird and so high schoolish once again (Another reason why I didn't go to SFSU). I mean I like high school, but hated my last year. Anyway, I also meet new people everyday, weird but it's true. I don't consider myself a "freshman", I consider my self a person who has gone to college going on her "second-semester". Why? I dunno, I hate those "freshman", "sophomore", "junior", "senior" level names. I mean in college you're just there to graduate to get your degree. The people can be either older or younger than you from like 5 years or so, whatever it doesn't matter. I might just be rambling on now ... sorry. ^^; -bows-
Maybe it's because I dunno what I wanna be anymore. Sure I'm sticking to English major or Child Development/Psychology ... but now I'm dreaming of owning a book store near UCSF or USF. That would be a dream job, hell I want it so bad. Just selling books and not bother if I'm going to be robbed or not. Screw Barns and Nobel or boarders (bastards didn't get me a job). I rather own a small book store and get good students who need the money as my employers. A dream job in the afternoon and I just teach a kindergarten class in the morning. That's what i want, but sadly I know it's not going to happen if I don't devote myself to do it.
Is this why I'm so unsatisfied because I want to jump to my dream job life?
That's weird. How ... childish.
Or it could also be that I miss senpai terribly, why? Because me and him have been pretty close since 8th grade. I am not being romantic or sappy, so don't get any ideas. I miss senpai because I feel like he stole my other half T_T; I don't usually go to online games as much, I don't play the wii as much (big surprise there! for me...), I don't read as much, and I don't talk as much. Now all I do is class, study, eat, class, study, eat, study, and class. Why study? Because I want that damn dream job. Damn it, he needs to retun my fun part. But maybe that's just me ... I mean I do have freetime, but I'm usually looking for mistakes in my essay and yet I still get a fucking B+! Wtf. I want an A... ger...
So anyway ... stupid senpai had to leave so far away. If he went to Santa Cruz i would have been able to vistit him once every two weeks in the weekend. But nooo~ Merced because he couldn't find the stupid Santa Cruz paper. Then again I DID want him to go there because I thought it would be better for him ( I think it has but ... WHY THE WHITE JOKES!?! That's what she said... I mean c'mon!) Yeah ... I miss senpai a lot, but maybe someday I can finally live with him and run away from home. (: Okay not literally, but something like that.
Oh yeah another part of my dream, live with senpai. NOT as a couple, but as roommates with donna probably. No, not probably HOPEfully. Lol. I don't understand why some people keep asking if we are or arent a couple, it's none of your buisness. I don't pry on your personal love life. I keep it away unless you ask for help then I will give you my answer honestly. If I say "I dunno" I MEAN "I dunno" not helpful, but it's something HONEST. /swt Harsh ... but it's the truth.
Well ... even if I ramble on I'm STILL unsatisfied with something. It has been bothering me all day and all month. I swear ... I will figure this out!
Perhaps it is the conclusion of my paper that I have not finished. I think that may be my unsatisfaction as of right now ... but it can't be ... right?
I have stuff that I don't really need, I have a home, I don't live far away so I'm not spending money stupidly, I like college, but yet ... why am I so unsatisfied?
Sure senpai lives far away, but I've adapted this (more or less). And I enjoy not seeing people from high school or middle school. I mean I see some, but not like ... every single day. It would be to ... to weird and so high schoolish once again (Another reason why I didn't go to SFSU). I mean I like high school, but hated my last year. Anyway, I also meet new people everyday, weird but it's true. I don't consider myself a "freshman", I consider my self a person who has gone to college going on her "second-semester". Why? I dunno, I hate those "freshman", "sophomore", "junior", "senior" level names. I mean in college you're just there to graduate to get your degree. The people can be either older or younger than you from like 5 years or so, whatever it doesn't matter. I might just be rambling on now ... sorry. ^^; -bows-
Maybe it's because I dunno what I wanna be anymore. Sure I'm sticking to English major or Child Development/Psychology ... but now I'm dreaming of owning a book store near UCSF or USF. That would be a dream job, hell I want it so bad. Just selling books and not bother if I'm going to be robbed or not. Screw Barns and Nobel or boarders (bastards didn't get me a job). I rather own a small book store and get good students who need the money as my employers. A dream job in the afternoon and I just teach a kindergarten class in the morning. That's what i want, but sadly I know it's not going to happen if I don't devote myself to do it.
Is this why I'm so unsatisfied because I want to jump to my dream job life?
That's weird. How ... childish.
Or it could also be that I miss senpai terribly, why? Because me and him have been pretty close since 8th grade. I am not being romantic or sappy, so don't get any ideas. I miss senpai because I feel like he stole my other half T_T; I don't usually go to online games as much, I don't play the wii as much (big surprise there! for me...), I don't read as much, and I don't talk as much. Now all I do is class, study, eat, class, study, eat, study, and class. Why study? Because I want that damn dream job. Damn it, he needs to retun my fun part. But maybe that's just me ... I mean I do have freetime, but I'm usually looking for mistakes in my essay and yet I still get a fucking B+! Wtf. I want an A... ger...
So anyway ... stupid senpai had to leave so far away. If he went to Santa Cruz i would have been able to vistit him once every two weeks in the weekend. But nooo~ Merced because he couldn't find the stupid Santa Cruz paper. Then again I DID want him to go there because I thought it would be better for him ( I think it has but ... WHY THE WHITE JOKES!?! That's what she said... I mean c'mon!) Yeah ... I miss senpai a lot, but maybe someday I can finally live with him and run away from home. (: Okay not literally, but something like that.
Oh yeah another part of my dream, live with senpai. NOT as a couple, but as roommates with donna probably. No, not probably HOPEfully. Lol. I don't understand why some people keep asking if we are or arent a couple, it's none of your buisness. I don't pry on your personal love life. I keep it away unless you ask for help then I will give you my answer honestly. If I say "I dunno" I MEAN "I dunno" not helpful, but it's something HONEST. /swt Harsh ... but it's the truth.
Well ... even if I ramble on I'm STILL unsatisfied with something. It has been bothering me all day and all month. I swear ... I will figure this out!
Perhaps it is the conclusion of my paper that I have not finished. I think that may be my unsatisfaction as of right now ... but it can't be ... right?
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Surprise, surprise
All right! (:
Because I feel like ranting due to my utter boring life right this instant I will tell you what happened yesterday in detail because I caaan~
So yes, I woke up late for the planned 'Valentines Breakfast' that Ray suggested to do before the retreat. But guess what? I wasn't late at all! HA! I'm sadden that Dorothy and Isabel couldn't come. Why?
Dorothy gets to go to New York if she wins the Shakespeare Tournament thing for acting. Go her! xD My gosh, what a brave soul she has, hopefully she'll win. (: Sadly that day is when the retreat lands in. So we understand that she's doing this for her school. Still, yippie for her! x) But ... I'll be the only girl leader in the retreat... (I hear I'm not, so double the happiness!)
Isabel couldn't attend because of a flat tire. -Saaaad!- I wanted to tease her too ... =___=; buuu.
So yeah, during the morning where everyone was supposed to meet up. Uuh.. Ray got a parking ticket. I didn't know that was his car (I totally forgot how it looked like) and bam! He got a ticket. I felt bad, but ... oh well... JJ and Reggie told him what to do. I'm no help, I don't drive. Although I did ask questions, they just ignored me or I was speaking to soft. Ray laughs every time I speak, he says people don't listen to me not on purpose but because my voice is too soft. T_T; Bull man ... I shall speak like a man then! Ger ... Ray's fun even though I feel bad I cant spell his name Remielle ... I think, or was it with no E. Gaah!
So then Ray, Reggie, and I sit on JJ's ubber expensive super cool box car. Lmao, its so small but so ... spacious. How ... I dunno. Well anyway, Lucky and Ernest came and we decided to meet everyone up at Millbrea's Pancake House thing. o__O; I kept bothering Ray if it was at Millibrea, so we questioned it by ourselves. Weeird.
So, sadly my partner in questions left me with Reggie and Julio. Darns Ray, he left me all alone with Lucky and JJ, the umm ... soon to graduate ones. Haha. Yeah it was int resting to ride with two people you don't really talk as much, you just tease. My gosh... it seems EVERYONE likes to tease my voice. Wtf am I? A chipmunk!? Raah!
So JJ starts powering up his radio ipod thingy. And so I listen and listen, pretty good songs, but I'm not updated with the uuh ... Hiphop world music. So we arrive at the Pancake house, while I tease Lucky by answering her questions in "I dunno" or "No". xD Ah the love...
Nope.
I starved my self in the morning for good pancakes. Thus we wait for 30 minutes or soo ... geer. Tis starving (along with hungry hungry Julio), and both of us really want food. It's not fair... ): But soon the waiter calls us and we order our food along with Lorli, Jeff, and Florio.
It was interesting listening Reggie, Lorli, and Ernest's stories in teaching kids. I laugh at Ernest stories...
E: So this kindergarten kid suddenly starts throwing up and then the kid next to him saw and just threw up his food too. Crap, I hate kindergartners! I just told them not to look.
Lmao. xD Ah, I wanna be that! I love kids, they are just so adoriable. So in the end, we all left and bid our farewells. JJ took me back home and got me to listen to this pretty good artist. I forgot the name of it, but I'll ask him later. He reminds me of one of my older brother, so it wasn't so awkward riding alone with him. Usually it would be weird for me to ride with a stranger. /swt
Once JJ dropped me off to go to his spiffy date ;D I downloaded GrandChase and got my self involved with a boy. Actually I tried what senpai told me to do. Go to the park section, say I'm a girl and single ... then suddenly bunch of people were friggen chasing me. Boys I persume ... I lagged. Bastards made me start over again. >>; Yeah, I'm a couple with some guy, pretty obvious.
So I returned him a gift. A written short story and thus he liked it. So yey. (:
Valentines was okay, but could have been better if the posole wasn't so watery. ); What a let down, no chili in it. Damn it.
Because I feel like ranting due to my utter boring life right this instant I will tell you what happened yesterday in detail because I caaan~
So yes, I woke up late for the planned 'Valentines Breakfast' that Ray suggested to do before the retreat. But guess what? I wasn't late at all! HA! I'm sadden that Dorothy and Isabel couldn't come. Why?
Dorothy gets to go to New York if she wins the Shakespeare Tournament thing for acting. Go her! xD My gosh, what a brave soul she has, hopefully she'll win. (: Sadly that day is when the retreat lands in. So we understand that she's doing this for her school. Still, yippie for her! x) But ... I'll be the only girl leader in the retreat... (I hear I'm not, so double the happiness!)
Isabel couldn't attend because of a flat tire. -Saaaad!- I wanted to tease her too ... =___=; buuu.
So yeah, during the morning where everyone was supposed to meet up. Uuh.. Ray got a parking ticket. I didn't know that was his car (I totally forgot how it looked like) and bam! He got a ticket. I felt bad, but ... oh well... JJ and Reggie told him what to do. I'm no help, I don't drive. Although I did ask questions, they just ignored me or I was speaking to soft. Ray laughs every time I speak, he says people don't listen to me not on purpose but because my voice is too soft. T_T; Bull man ... I shall speak like a man then! Ger ... Ray's fun even though I feel bad I cant spell his name Remielle ... I think, or was it with no E. Gaah!
So then Ray, Reggie, and I sit on JJ's ubber expensive super cool box car. Lmao, its so small but so ... spacious. How ... I dunno. Well anyway, Lucky and Ernest came and we decided to meet everyone up at Millbrea's Pancake House thing. o__O; I kept bothering Ray if it was at Millibrea, so we questioned it by ourselves. Weeird.
So, sadly my partner in questions left me with Reggie and Julio. Darns Ray, he left me all alone with Lucky and JJ, the umm ... soon to graduate ones. Haha. Yeah it was int resting to ride with two people you don't really talk as much, you just tease. My gosh... it seems EVERYONE likes to tease my voice. Wtf am I? A chipmunk!? Raah!
So JJ starts powering up his radio ipod thingy. And so I listen and listen, pretty good songs, but I'm not updated with the uuh ... Hiphop world music. So we arrive at the Pancake house, while I tease Lucky by answering her questions in "I dunno" or "No". xD Ah the love...
Nope.
I starved my self in the morning for good pancakes. Thus we wait for 30 minutes or soo ... geer. Tis starving (along with hungry hungry Julio), and both of us really want food. It's not fair... ): But soon the waiter calls us and we order our food along with Lorli, Jeff, and Florio.
It was interesting listening Reggie, Lorli, and Ernest's stories in teaching kids. I laugh at Ernest stories...
E: So this kindergarten kid suddenly starts throwing up and then the kid next to him saw and just threw up his food too. Crap, I hate kindergartners! I just told them not to look.
Lmao. xD Ah, I wanna be that! I love kids, they are just so adoriable. So in the end, we all left and bid our farewells. JJ took me back home and got me to listen to this pretty good artist. I forgot the name of it, but I'll ask him later. He reminds me of one of my older brother, so it wasn't so awkward riding alone with him. Usually it would be weird for me to ride with a stranger. /swt
Once JJ dropped me off to go to his spiffy date ;D I downloaded GrandChase and got my self involved with a boy. Actually I tried what senpai told me to do. Go to the park section, say I'm a girl and single ... then suddenly bunch of people were friggen chasing me. Boys I persume ... I lagged. Bastards made me start over again. >>; Yeah, I'm a couple with some guy, pretty obvious.
So I returned him a gift. A written short story and thus he liked it. So yey. (:
Valentines was okay, but could have been better if the posole wasn't so watery. ); What a let down, no chili in it. Damn it.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Happy Valentines Day
Yeah, happy valentines day to you people with significant others. x)
Not grumpy about it, not really caring about it really. Lmao, but yeah have a good one and make it special-ER since it's raining here so yeah! D<
Well I had my valentines breakfast with the retreat group, it was fun. (: I kinda like making Lucky say shut up to me or just giggle at her. It's fun. (x Even though I found her kind of intimidating ... I don't think so anymore. She's just as luvable as ... a big giant teddy bear. Mwuahah. I think me and Julio are talking more since o__o; I dunno, but it's cool. xD
So ... I got my own mini computer! Yeey, I don't care if Senpai says it sucks. It's very useful for me! ;D
Anyway, have a nice one~!
Not grumpy about it, not really caring about it really. Lmao, but yeah have a good one and make it special-ER since it's raining here so yeah! D<
Well I had my valentines breakfast with the retreat group, it was fun. (: I kinda like making Lucky say shut up to me or just giggle at her. It's fun. (x Even though I found her kind of intimidating ... I don't think so anymore. She's just as luvable as ... a big giant teddy bear. Mwuahah. I think me and Julio are talking more since o__o; I dunno, but it's cool. xD
So ... I got my own mini computer! Yeey, I don't care if Senpai says it sucks. It's very useful for me! ;D
Anyway, have a nice one~!