Yeah. I hate being judged. Well not technically judged but for my own family to always give insults at me. To suck it up you say? I've tried that and look where its gotten me: Depression. To not think about it you say? I cannot ignore those harsh words that almost make me cry. Yeah, I've been teased, discriminated, and insulted by other people who are strangers. However, this is done constantly by my family. My own family who I would think they would never do that, have done such thing to hurt me. I mean if it was once I would take the harsh comment at heart. However, to hear these things constantly is just hurting me. I'm being neglected by my own mother, insulted by one of my brothers, and been always yelled at by my dad. Alright, so what would you do? I'm so tired that I actually cry at night to just forget it. I love god truthfully, but this task that he is giving me is just too hard to handle. To try to clam myself, I listen to music high up. What do I get from it?
"Stop being a lazy ass, do something with your life will you?"
That's a harsh comment I get almost daily from my dad and brother. Yeah. I find it harsh at least. I'm sad, frustrated, tired, and depressed. Are they seriously taking away my sanity? I don't really know, but it just hurts deep down. That's why sometimes I rather not go back home and just stay in the library and probably leave the library atound 8-9pm. Sadly, that can't happen. Maru will get worried and such. I don't want that. Sigh... I rather have love troubles than have family problems. Well like you people want me to do is suck it up, so I shall now.
Anyway, I swear... 43 Mesonic makes me dizzy. Maybe I should take the 9x City College from now on. Then again I'm to lazy to walk 3-4 blocks away from my class. LOL. (= Oh crap. This game called "La Tale" is something similar to MapleStory, but I find this way better than MS. I love being an archer, why? It just rocks ass! I've always (and I mean always) been a Mage in many different online games. Thus I pass that torch to Maru, who is currently a Mage. G'luck m'dear! In other news...
The debate was pretty stupid if you ask me~
That woman, who i totally forgot her name, is stupid stupid stupid. She changed the subject so many many times and tried to turn the debate in her hands so she could rule. Sadly, people saw this and this was a huge mistake missy. Btw, I'm pretty sure in Alaska you can't see Russia from there deary. Maybe going on a boat towards there then yes. Otherwise, think again m'dear. Oh, that guy, who I don't know his name at all, was pretty much an emo. Haha, I do not want a VP who cries a lot or gets emotional. Sorry, but no. I want a strong VP and President, guess I see none of this in either side. So they suck. :]
G'luck to you voters. If you vote for any of them and they make America suck more. I blame YOU. :D
-hugs- my poor missy. I <3 you ;-;.
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