Gynophobia

I probably have Gynophobia, although I'm a girl myself. So I'm probably scared of myself! Sometimes that does happen though, where I actually get afraid of myself. Most likely it's because of the actions and decisions I make. Crappers.

I mean I guess I have had pretty bad experience with girls that are supposed to be friends. Maybe I'm scared of that girl friendship that happens here and there. Because you most likely know that they talk crap about each other. Well a majority of them do! Jeez. Scary right? Well for me it is, that's why I kinda side with the boys here. lol.

During my high school experience girls can be very very vicious. Wanna see the examples?

Example 1: She just wants to befriend cause she's interested...

Of course a good friend of mine since 6th grade liked this boy, i knew it and kept it a secret from everybody. she wanted to actually confess to the person she likes and had gotten help from the boys friend who is a girl. the boys friend supported her and all that and tried to become really close to my friend. that is until the break up happened, where the boys friend was getting a little bit too close to my friends ex. she admitted that she treats him like an older brother so she wants to protect him. however she tired to "cheer up" by saying move on and forget. sure i'd like to say that too, but that's not being oh so friendly. besides the break up was due to the fact that he was hanging out with his "girl friends" a bit too much and ignored his girlfriend. i partly blame him and yet the friend of his, since she wasn't saying what wrongs he was doing. if she really treats him like a brother and wants him happy, then say his wrong doings. also she was only getting close to my friend because my friend was interested in him. Uuugh. I hate that kind of friendship. I really do.

Example 2: Girlfriend being too ... overprotective?

I love my friends that are boys, in different ways really. i care for them like brothers 99% of the time. i respect them and hug them (only if they want to.) if they have a girl friend and i don't know about it, then that's fine by me, but once their girlfriend starts to talk to me I already know that something bad is going to happen. guess what? it did. LOL. a friend who i consider a good friend gains a girlfriend and i'm happy about it. go you mister! (: however... his girlfriend is a bit ... well i think is being too overprotective. to actually IM me and tell me to go out with my ex once again and leave a good friend of mine alone? i mean hell yeah sure i told him to go out with another girl long time ago before he dated his girlfriend, but it was just a joke. )= cute couple for me, but a joke! I asked myself "Why go that far to tell me to date my ex?" but at this point i was distancing myself from him and it felt really awkward. too awkward that i was making myself go emo. yuuck. but i got over it, since my senpai told me to fk whatever she's saying and still be good friends with him. so thus i listen and it's getting ... a bit better? LOL. but i'm still afraid of those overprotective girlfriends. just leave me alooone~ i have no interest in a guy who i don't even have feelings for! )= screw women...

Example 3: Hangout with the group!

a group of girls can be fun, but sometimes that fun can be hell. these girls have no morals in my opinion. they call themselves the best of friend when they have actually talk bad stuff behind their backs? i was hearing it all over this small little group. how so and so is a whore or is stupid. i couldn't stand being friends with people who actually don't like each other. i mean why fake a friendship? so cruel ... so so cruel... yet scary too! but really, i wanted to scream at them and say: "say it to their faces you big idiot! don't just talk behind their backs!"

Example 4: He was my boyfriend! You backstabber!

3 really good friends dated the same guy at once. I truthfully don't know how they didn't find out sooner, jeez. creepy right? well ... I blame the guy for ruining their friendship, yet it was scary what they were saying to each other. I mean to break off a relationship just because of a guy? Kinda scary how women think, i mean truthfully it was the guys fault in the beginning. i see no point in this so fk example 4. lol... but really these girls got verbally hurt. stupid guy...

Overall I fear women. Of course not all women, but I really need to know them for 4+ more years to actually be really friendly and trust them with things. But seeing these things... nah uh. Not cool at all. So I fear! xD Truthfully I have like 4 girls that really good friends with me, but that's because i've known them for quiet sometime and they've gained my trust. overall, i fear the same sex...LOL.